doing what a bomb does (forgive me, my tongue does not do well with destruction) in my chest, on that snake road, facing my heart. a warning shot. but even in my fantasy, i don’t get any farther than the fall. i am shelled from above, through a mouth i still haven’t learned how to … More i have tried to imagine a bomb
I wash dishes while the sun dies and think about the time I went to church and the time i spent a week pushing a square block into a round hole. my brown skin reddens and isn’t anymore the soft he said it was last night when it was all hands and headboards and heaven. … More fear is a sink spilling over.
i bring a spade to a polite dinner and you don’t even notice that i’ve stopped digging with my hands. it’s awkward and we call it and we bury everything again. so, it wasn’t us. so, we didn’t make it. i unclench my fist and nothing falls out of it. you stay the same you’ve … More holding
Sophomore year of high school, I took a class called Great Ideas. During the “love unit”, we were asked to define love. I said love is putting someone else’s happiness above your own. I’ve learned a lot between 16 and 21 but I think the most important might be that this definition is at least a little … More halves & wholes
Written in Dublin, Ireland, June 2017 I appreciate being in a place where the sky looks like it might leak thunder at any given time. The gray doesn’t matter. The gray I can edit with the brightness factor on my camera. Even through a window, even as the clank of the bus gears slows, I … More Old Friends
It was a highway snaking away from Chicago. It was before I knew what a highway was. We had the windows rolled down because my mother wasn’t there, and she was the one most worried about wind and July bugs and other things. The car smelled of McDonald’s and I was young enough that that … More
So my hometown is one great big cosmic joke and I’m stuck writing about it because I can’t lose my shit every time I step into HyVee, or Panera, or everywhere. This entire town is a liminal space: I’m 21 but I’m scared of the same people I was scared of at high school show … More my hometown as a cosmic joke